Num 14:39-45 When Moses told these words to all the people of Israel, the people mourned greatly. And they rose early in the morning and went up to the heights of the hill country, saying, “Here we are. We will go up to the place that the LORD has promised, for we have sinned.” But Moses said, “Why now are you transgressing the command of the LORD, when that will not succeed? Do not go up, for the LORD is not among you, lest you be struck down before your enemies. For there the Amalekites and the Canaanites are facing you, and you shall fall by the sword. Because you have turned back from following the LORD, the LORD will not be with you.” But they presumed to go up to the heights of the hill country, although neither the ark of the covenant of the LORD nor Moses departed out of the camp. Then the Amalekites and the Canaanites who lived in that hill country came down and defeated them and pursued them, even to Hormah.
And the people mourned greatly.—It appears from what follows that the sorrow which the Israelites felt was sorrow for the punishment which their sin had entailed, not godly sorrow for the sin itself. (Ellicott)
But it was now too late. There was now no place for repentance. Such mourning as this there is in hell; but the tears will not quench the flames. (Benson)
There is in hell such mourning as this; but tears will not quench the flames, nor cool the tongue. Some of the Israelites were now earnest to go forward toward Canaan. But it came too late. If men would but be as earnest for heaven while their day of grace lasts, as they will be when it is over, how well would it be for them! That which has been duty in its season, when mistimed, may be turned into sin. Those who are out of the way of their duty, are not under God’s protection, and go at their peril. (Henry)
The people mourned greatly; because of their unhappy case, that they should be cut off by death in the wilderness, and be deprived of the enjoyment of the good land; their sorrow seems to have been not a godly sorrow, or true repentance for sin committed, but a worldly sorrow that works death; it was not on account of the evil of sin, the pardon of which they did not seem to seek after, but on account of the evil that was likely to come to them by it. (Gill)
They rushed from one extreme of rashness and perversity to another, and the obstinacy of their rebellious spirit was evinced by their active preparations to ascend the hill, notwithstanding the divine warning they had received not to undertake that enterprise. for we have sinned—that is, realizing our sin, we now repent of it, and are eager to do as Caleb and Joshua exhorted us—or, as some render it, though we have sinned, we trust God will yet give us the land of promise. The entreaties of their prudent and pious leader, who represented to them that their enemies, scaling the other side of the valley, would post themselves on the top of the hill before them, were disregarded. How strangely perverse the conduct of the Israelites, who, shortly before, were afraid that, though their Almighty King was with them, they could not get possession of the land; and yet now they act still more foolishly in supposing that, though God were not with them, they could expel the inhabitants by their unaided efforts. The consequences were such as might have been anticipated. The Amalekites and Canaanites, who had been lying in ambuscade expecting their movement, rushed down upon them from the heights and became the instruments of punishing their guilty rebellion. (Brown)
We might wonder how to get right with God so we can follow, trust, and rely upon Him. When sin is exposed and our hearts and minds are made known of it, there must be repentance. I am not talking about repentance of being found out. I am talking about repentance of sinning against God. There is a big difference. One will proclaim how sorry they are and the other will confess and fall at the feet of God with a heart of knowing there is nothing that they can do but repent, confess, and rely upon the grace, mercy, and love of God.
Too many times I fear we confuse being sorry with repentance. It is one thing to be made aware of your sin compared to being aware of it in the light of the holiness of God. When sin is seen in the holiness of God and not in obedience to His Word then the sinfulness of sin surely will fall upon the heart with such heaviness that only faith in the grace and mercy of God can dispel. This is totally different than to tell God you’re sorry and go about your day.
How does one who has had their sin exposed in the light go God’s holiness and in all of its sinful ugliness ever be right with God? How???? If it were left up to us and our abilities we would never be able to remove it, make up for it, or cancel it. It would hang onto us like the skin on our bodies. There is nothing we can do or say that would remove the ugliness of our sinfulness. Nothing. But God can! God does! God will!
“For God so loved the world that He gave His only Son so that whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life!”
It is never about what we do but what He has done. Trust in self-sorry, self-repentance, self-works, and any other thing self and do falls short of true confession, repentance, faith, obedience, reliance, and trust.